Crushing

I have had the same crush for sometime.  I still like him.  However, there has been a second for some time now.  I have told no one.  I will not tell anyone, unless they have seen this post.  I am desperate to tell my secret.  I was forbidden to tell anyone by an intimidating girl who doesn't like me very much.  Now, I am free to do as a will.

It hurt a little, for a boy to be "off limits".  I wanted to tell someone, but I couldn't...  now I can. 

Now all of you who know who I like (the main one) I still very much like him.  He is still in favor.  However, I need to tell SOMEONE this second.  Because I can.

Why do I do that?  Why do I let dumb people scare me, and manipulate me to do what they want (or dont want)??

Oh well.